my right eyelid became single these few days..been thinking alot this few days and i kind of thought it through...i guess i cant be that selfish to wan our frenship back..for this few weeks really kind of cannot adapt to the not msging u life..i nv knew that i had actually started to rely on you..it was really nice for you to be always there for me..that i kind of start to take it for granted..act when we started to drift i wasn't realli affected coz i had always thought it's just that we havent been msging..but if we gonna start msging again we will get back like the past..what a beautiful mindset i had there..i'm may be abit sad that i kind of lost u but mostly affected that u said we couldn't get back to the past..u noe i act cried...i dunno why..but kind of i didnt say nite to sleep but act to cry..i had always tot that we can still be as good as ever..that nite i told myself..i'm gonna prove to you and myself that we still can go back to the past..and the only way is to keep msging u like the past...no doubt the many times in between i feel like giving up..no matter how thick skinned i had to be..i rmb once..i msged u in the morning..u replied and den u said u need to do yr maths msg me ltr..but u nv did..and u didn't intend to do it in the first place rite?so i msged u..and when sch ends u didnt reply again..i tot it was normal..in the past u would oni reply when u are going home..so i waited..till night falls..and i didnt receive any..so i msged u another time..three times..it's a record i've nv touched..msg a guy three times in a day when he didnt reply me?i've nv been that thick skin b4 i was nv that kind of person to try and try again...like how i rather sit in the darkness and adapt to it then to try to the climb up the hole i fell from when handling personal relations...afew times u didnt reply me too..didnt know whether it's u nv receive or what..but kind of nice time to not receive it..maybe it's just not fated for me to succeed to getting back close with u..and i start to kind of think..so what if i can still be jealous...if i can still whine..everything will be different..it will be a one person thing..u wun get jealous anymore..you wun care if i whine or not..all u would do is to say oh..that's all u need to do anyway..so what if i get u back..i'm being too selfish isn't it..i wan to have the best of both...i wan to cont liking him and yet be real good with u...even if u did matter to me in my heart...but he matters too..like how i can't forget him..even if we be as close as the past..i will still be thinking of him..so i guess the best is to let it go..i guess i cant have the best of both...i rmb once u told me bt yr troubles..my advice to u is that time will reveal everything..i dunno whether the gal u were talking abt is me..if it's me..why i would give that advice is coz i wasn't sure bt who u are to me..and that i tot we still have time..i like it that way..but wht i didnt know is we lost to time..and other distractions perhaps...or maybe i being too thick skin here again...but anyway juz wanna thx u for all the times u gave..u kind of filled my dec holi with fun and laughter..though i nv did realise it until i dunhav those days anymore..it was really comforting to know that u were always there..when i suddenly juz get all emotional and misses him alot..when i were really pissed bt things..and sweet to know that act someone out there would act feel somethng out of me talking to other guys..and i act meant all those things i said when we were close..but i dunno whether u meant it like i do..maybe not anymore?..maybe i will still find u when i have probs..but i guess like u said we cant get back anymore..so i will try to stop myself from msging u evryday...'get a life' like elaine had said i guess...yepz but still frens forever..

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.