"Hey!. juz wanted to come up and blog since i couldnt sleep. did i say i went to zj;s hse for a sleepover, okay, sort of. BUt yes, although i crapped alot on how i'm grateful and all.. maybe she;s this shopping partner and buddyl. but i guess i've been too occupied with my own stuff that i neglect some other stuff. we couldnt find things to do at all at night. chatting was one alternative..but i couldnt open myself up. Its weird how we do not have things to say anymore. Maybe we've juz turned to others. but yes, we used to chat alot on the phone. not anymore i guess, we;ve lost interest. someone did tell me i've been more quiet these days.. agreed? not talking much, no more huge laughter, but more of a half-smile. i wonder if its true. Oh and even when we went for a nite dip, which was this perfect time and place to talk, we didnt.. instead i ended up swimming and she was talking on the phone. but a good thing was i found peace.. i was floating on the water, the sky was beautiful and there was no one. my eyes were in the water, it was quiet...calm. i enjoyed it.. looks like i still like this calmness"...hmmm...this is what elaine blogged...heyz hmm sorry...realli happy that hmm i'm yr shopping partner...hahaz..u are the one who trained me to shop..so of course laz..hmm..anyway i dun think it's just u that been too occupied with yr stuff..i have been cooped up with my stuff too..act..u weren't the oni one having that 'shit i can't open up feeling'..hmm i guess both of us have stuff that we dun wan to talk abt at that point of time..i know we were reali quiet that nite..juz listening to the radio and deep in our own thoughts..but i guess all it matters is yr exsistance isn't it?as long u're there..it makes no much diff that we are cooping ourselves up or laughing our heads off everything...i rmb u tried striking that conver in the pool asking what's the prob with my parents..but i changed the conver...not that we couldn't talk abt anything anymore..but juz that i didn't reali wan to talk abt it..i mean i didnt know the cause..i juz know that one day they came back with those back facing each other attitude..den my mum started telling me bt she's prepared for divorce and washing her hands off my dad's stuff in work..it was realli tormenting but i didnt want to face it with anybody..hmm yea..i mean i rmb i quarrel with my bro juz bcoz no one wanted to bring to buy my books...my dad was out bringing my younger bro for tuition..i'm at the office with my mum heck caring everything with that i dunno how u gonna buy and i dun care attitude..she even suggested that i go and buy it myself den bring it home myself using public transport when she knew that i needed to go out with sy ltr to celebrate my bdae..so in the end i went to ask my bro..juz bcoz he dunwan to add a weight of two bags of books to his beloved car..he quarreled with me..oh gosh my books are so heavy it can crush his car up..he need a tank of oil juz to bring me frm sch to amk mrt if that two bags are on the car..i rmb he commented that i got to be independent why dun i juz bring it home myself...i was like hey i'm still 14 and u?u are 23..how independent u expect me to be..u be got until like that what's the point...now that mum and dad is quarreling what u wan me to do...it's my bdae tml loh..and i still need to celebrate with my fren ltr how the hell u wan me to bring the stuff back..i mean i was realli crying the hell out..is like ever since they quarrelled i even need to quarrel with my gor juz to buy my books..hmm yea...anyway my mum is real pissed real now bcoz i been dragging the time i'm using the com..so hmm i will complete it some other time maybe tml..okie..