'hqi grtr tgno onf'..living in the past..

2005-06-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

2005-05-21T12:26:00.000+08:00

hmm..heyz guys been a long time since i blogged..but anyway dun think i'll be bloggin anymore..my taggies also bcum so cold..lolz..been kind of sick of bloggin le..and no one cares anymore so why must i..i dun need anyone to understand too..not that i want any..

2005-05-05T19:42:00.000+08:00

hmm..things were kinda bad ytd...hmm my money got stolen frm some heartless creep...it was what i saved for one week..went home to eat almost everyday...okie i sound poor..but wadever i already planned how i wan to spend it before i even saved it...wtf and all the plans and money gone down the drain..there' goes my wax house the movie..there goes my abercrombie and fitch cargo..and they were onli part of the things i wan to buy...though 38 bucks wasnt enuff to buy the cargo but it was only a 4.90 more...and now?i have to start from zilch...when i realised my money was missing...was like crying..quite hard..i dunno why juz felt the pain of saving and then losing it suddenly..but i cant figure it out..how can he steal it...how did he dare to with so many ppl in the class..he's bold and fast...and the times he could steal was like impossible coz my frens were ard even when i was not in class..unless he steals in frnt of them..grrrrr..i hate that person man..and second time my things kenna stolen le lehz..is it bcoz i'm reali that careless or the target is on me?!sianz...and now i still owe weihao 7bucks...coz i left his comic under the table...and the next day presto!!it's gone..guess it got stolen too...god why would anyway steal a comic which is like book 17?two theft cases in a day on me..interesting shit...someone's trying really hard to make me really broke...

hmmm tml finally last exam le!!!lolz..hmm buden cannot go anywhere...MONEY!!!...nvm...i shall just go home and watch my date with a vampire 3..lolz...finally managed to borrow it..hmm...tests were kinda okie...cannot expect myself to fail any subs..if i fail i will definitely cry man..i juz hope i wun fail all my papers though some paper i will really do badly...

haven't been in a very good mood today...buden think i concealed it quite well..not the really moody but juz like feels sth lurking ard but i still can laugh and fool ard...hmm...yepz...i feel as if i have alot of feelings to say...but i just cant say it out...like i dunno where to start..yanchao commented that i sound relax when i told mr lim today how much i lost...but guess he would nv know the more relax i sounds..the more i actually care....hmm forget it i cant write just not in the right mood..

2005-04-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

sianz...first an ulcer now flu+cough+fever..plus that headache i have since ytd...sianz...body becoming shitty-er and shitty-er...lolz...somemore now stil exams period how am i going to study...hai...

act wanted to go out today with elaine de..buden last nite she nv say and i nv asked coz also dun feel like going out in my state...hahaz..hmmm..nth much these few days...just kept studying...finished four papers!!!lolz...kind of in slack mood now..coz cleared all the papers i'm scared of...hahaz..except for amaths though...buden chem and phy were not as hard as i tot..hahaz..though not very confident bt chem...bleahz hope wun fail again..hmm..tried playing vball ytd also and i suck..haha...hmmm suan le...but it was kind of fun...

hmmm ytd showed a pic to weeter...it's a very nice one...with two paths of routes ,darkness and light...yeps and ask him to choose..as expected he chose the light one...hahaz..same choice as nat different frm me though...he asked me why and i answered 'na ke lu bu jiao hao zou'..dunno why i will lidat say also...juz feel that everybody is living in a world of darkness whether they noe it or not..light is juz a temporary fantasy and u will still fall back to darkness...and when u are too immuned to darkness you will forget abt fantasy for you know u will nv have the chance to climb up but the chance of falling from light is almost a 100%...all the happiness weren't worth it if in the end it is those that pushed you back to darkness...

2005-04-23T20:49:00.000+08:00

hmm...flag day was cool..hahaz..nv knew doing it was so fun..except the end part when i was really tired..for starters was late for 40mins den elaine nat they all keep calling me...lolz..then went to j8 to ask for donations...spent two hours of the 4hrs watching pacifier...kind of nice show..and first time go out with classmates...though oni afew..buden spend the whole day with karntiban divek and weihao...also got elaine anna and nat la..hope can have more of these stuff...lolz..after staying ard for a little while went back to tpy...tpy there de ppl all v.uncompassionate lehz...compare to bishan de..hahaz...getting a donation in tpy was so hard...and some ppl in tpy juz tao-ed me all the way when i asked...anyway was quite cool coz two person donated 10bucks to me...cool!!!hahaz...one was an auntie in bishan...another is a guy ard our age in tpy...when that guy gave i was like wow..nv knew teenagers so 'giving'...lolz..if everybody like that flag day will be so much easier....

2005-04-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz...today juz had geog and maths test..hope can get 18/20 for my maths...hope!!!lolz..hmm had pizza hut today damn full now...so cool karnitiban treat coz his fren return him money...130..so he treat us...lolz..cool rite..hmm he's realli nice...eat until 70plus den all he pay..me and elaine give him some money he die also dunwan take...cool sia...lolz...

hmm...ytd was cool too...was late for training so me anna nat and jody ran compounds two rnds ourselves...den when we started running we pass by a mango tree...lolz..den got a guy plucking lehz...den in the end we ask him help us pluck also..lolz..so cool..den we four person each got one...den after finishing one compound we pass by again and decide to pluck ourselves..but think we look like fools...we were laughing like shit...even tried the method of standing on two person's leg...wasn't successful at all..coz all of us will start laughing den everyone will start tumbling...lolz...cool though...promised each other to bring to sch and eat together when it ripes...hahaz...

hmm...tml having flag day..so sianz....also dunno where to go...den one jiu finis liao...elaine going malaysia after that..anna and nat wan go home study...karn adlin they all watching movie...i no money dunwan go...sianz..dunno who pei me go out sia..also dun feel like going out in sch u...but so early!!!hahaz...hmm see tml baz...

oh..and our class half of the nkf cards got lost...hahaz...coz zhenyang left on the table ma den next morning come jiu lost le..luckily the other half with shimin..but unfortunately mine was in the stack that was lost...hahaz..but anyway also dun care..juz laughed it off..237 in total...buden think the person who stole the cards if open mine, pavathi zhenyang cards rite will very sianz...lolz..coz it's a 50cents 50cents and 10cents...wahahhaz...we are such misers...lolz..

"your presence is tormenting me
but yet i'm dying without you
suffocated by boredom and loneliness
all the words you said
all the promises you made
were all sweet talks
sweet talkings without meaning it
and i was stupid enough to believe it
to let them lead me into a deep hole
a hole so dark i cant even see myself
i used to think you are just a friend
but when darkness smacked themselves on me
tagging behind stubbornly not wanting to leave me
then did i realised who are you to me
and what you had in you all along
i took everything for granted
believed that fantasy was forever
sweetness was everlasting
i had been a little princess believing in everything daddy king told me
all the fairy tales that were told to me since young
so familar with them was i
that for a moment i though they were true
till i got ripped out of my dreams
when you just walked off not flinching an inch
don't leave me you said
and oh
look who's leaving.."

"my friend just came back from her holiday
she got stories tales and tales to tell me
about her adventures of her dream guy and her
those stories inflict pain on me
they just tell me how lonely i am
how my wound seems to get deeper and deeper
although she's very happy and blissful
i can't seem to share her happiness
i'm filled with sadness
now her beyond redemption compared to mine
no one will know what i'm going through
now that i'm saying nothing
even if i decide to say anything
all that happened to me
she's too joyful to share my sorrow
she can't even feel a wee bit of it
all her pessimistic thoughts will turn optimistic miraculously
all her whines all turned into signs of happiness as for me?
i'm not even fit to whine
much less have the capability to hone this art
cause'
for one who am i going to whine to
no one listens anymore
i dun wish for anything
for i've got to be careful for everything i wish for
two what can i whine about
am i fit to in the first place
whine about every destruction that's happening to my life
or perhaps how pessimistic how this girl in me is becoming
or maybe worse about how those beautiful days slipped out of my hand
but i knowthis girl in me don't whine about such things
she will never lose the impulsiveness in her to say everything
courage others call
but to her it's impulsivenss that do more bad than good
she always lose control over such things
the control to keep everything next to her
the control to get back what's lost
it can't go worse she thought
so she always decide to make things worse
by groping in the dark
getting lost further
seems like she would never understand
what it means by 'when the night seems to be the darkest
it means the sun is going to rise soon' "

"i hate myself for everything i'm not doing
for everything i can't do
i promised myself that i was going to study
and now what i'm left with 10hrs to study all my untouched books
taking away my ten hrs of valuable sleep
and i'm spending this last hour playing and writing this
guess he ruined my mood for everything this holiday
hesitation within me
things i forced myself to not think about
hypnotising myself that everything's fine
hope i'll able to lock all my emotions in
before everything bad comes smacking on me
spare my phone till next month
i told my mum
cause' i have utter confidence in myself
that my msg count aren't going to be like the past
i lost the companion to make it come true
less than 300 i promised
a 1000 to 300 is an accomplishment
a huge one at that
that vast difference also prove the total inadequecy in me
it's easy to see how i am but guess mum nv did figure it out
my bill
that's all she need to infer from
no other invading of privacy evidence
or demanding an explanation from me
little money little msges lonely daughter
huge bomb thousand msges happy daughter
not happy happy perhaps
but definitely not lonely
or rather not the lonely lonely
so contradicting what i'm saying
but if you understand what i'm saying
then u will see the huge difference in context
of lonely lonely and lonely
or maybe happy happy and happy
guess i'm will never be fit to say happy happy
coz i was always too late to realise that i was happy happy
and by then i realise it it will be lonely lonely for me..."

"I detest him more than ever
that flirtatious bastard
she's just a friend look at the way he's over her
savouring the feeling of her liking him
fooling and flirting around like he's so suave
why does flirting seems so fun to him
he enjoys it so much
that it seems to be the only spice of his life
it's not a problem with initiative
he's weak, weak from his every vessels to nerves
that's the bottom statement
but i've got to admit he's turning cuter and cuter
but with his character down the drain
he's like a wolf in sheep's skin
cow dung attitude beneath the beautiful external
but i guess it's good
a blessing in duiguise
flirt as much as he wants
for all i care
it just makes the hate in me for him
grow day by day
then maybe one day i can forget about him
and let hatred rid off all the memories"

wrote all this when i didnt have a com to blog...hahaz..hmm though i already got over it but just decide to put it up...hahaz...third one was during march holis..hmm as for the thing i wanted to do to save ervything it failed too..lolz..think the last few sentence abit crap juz didnt know how to end it..lolz..wrote the fourth one when i really detest the sight of two person flirting..but now no more liao..furthermore also dun care liao..hahaz..got over it..dun like him le...so doesnt matter anymore..hahaz...

2005-04-22T17:15:00.000+08:00

"your presence is tormenting me
but yet i'm dying without you
suffocated by boredom and loneliness
all the words you said
all the promises you made
were all sweet talks
sweet talkings without meaning i
tand i was stupid enought to believe it
to let them lead me into a deep hole
a hole so dark i cant even see myself
i used to think you are just a friend
but when darkness smacked themselves on me
tagging behind stubbornly not wanting to leave me
then did i realised who are you to me
and what you had in you all along
i took everything for granted
believed that fantasy was forever
sweetness was everlasting
i had been a little princess believing in everything daddy king told me
all the fairy tales that were told to me since young
so familar with them was i
that for a moment i though they were true
till i got ripped out of my dreams
when you just walked off not flinching an inch
don't leave me you said
and oh
look who's leaving.."

"my friend just came back from her holiday she got stories
tales and tales to tell me about her adventures of her dream guy and her
those stories inflict pain on me
they just tell me how lonely i am
how my wound seems to get deeper and deeper
although she's very happy and blissfu
li can't seem to share her happinessi'm filled with sadness now
her beyond redemption compared to mine
no one will know what i'm going through
now that i'm saying nothing
even if i decide to say anything
all that happened to me
she's too joyful to share my sorrow
she can't even feel a wee bit of it
all her pessimistic thoughts will turn optimistic miraculously
all her whines she hones like art everyday all turned into signs of happiness
as for me?
i'm not even fit to whine much less have the capability to hone this art
cause'
for one who am i going to whine to
no one listens anymore
i dun wish for anything
for i've got to be careful for everything i wish for
two what can i whine about
am i fit to in the first place
whine about every destruction that's happening to my life
or perhaps how pessimistic how this girl in me is becoming
or maybe worse about how those beautiful days slipped out of my hand
but i knowthis girl in me don't whine about such things
she will never lose the impulsiveness in her to say everything
courage others call
but to her it's impulsivenss that do more bad than good
she always lose control over such things
the control to keep everything next to her
the control to get back what's lost
it can't go worse she thought
so she always decide to make things worse
by groping in the dark getting lost further
seems like she would never understand what it means by
'when the night seems to be the darkest
it means the sun is going to rise soon' "

"i hate myselffor everything i'm not doing
for everything i can't do
i promised myself that i was going to study
and now what
i'm left with 10hrs to study all my untouched books
taking away my ten hrs of valuable sleep
and i'm spending this last hour playing and writing this
guess he ruined my mood for everything this holiday
hesitation within me
things i forced myself to not think about
hypnotising myself that everything's fine
should i should i not
that letter means everything
whether i will buy into the good books of him again
or drop into the endless valley
or perhaps the deep dark freezing ocean
it depends on me i guess
on how desperate i am to get him back
but i think i'm going to do it
the last thing i will do for us
before i give up
i don't really care what's the ending i hope
that i can lock all my emotions in
by the time everything bad come smacking on me
spare my phone till next month
i told my mum
cause' i have utter confidence in myself
that my msg count aren't going to be like the past
i lost the companion to make it come true
less than 300 i promised
a 1000 to 300 is an accomplishment
a huge one at that
that vast difference also prove the total inadequecy in me
it's easy to see how i am but guess mum nv did figure it out
my bil
lthat's all she need to infer from
no other invading of privacy evidence
or demanding an explanation from me
little money little msges lonely daughter
huge bomb thousand msges happy daughter
not happy happy perhaps
but definitely not lonely
or rather not the lonely lonely
so contradicting what i'm saying
but if you understand what i'm saying
then u will see the huge difference in context of lonely lonely and lonely
or maybe happy happy and happy
guess i'm will never be fit to say happy happy
coz i was always too late to realise that i was happy happy
and by then i realise it
it will be lonely lonely for me..."

"I detest him more than ever
that flirtatious bastard
she's just a friend
look at the way he's over her
savouring the feeling of her liking him
fooling and flirting around like he's so suave
why does flirting seems so fun to him
he enjoys it so much
that it seems to be the only spice of his life
it's not a problem with initiative
he's weak, weak from his every vessels to nerves
that's the bottom statement
but i've got to admit
he's turning cuter and cuter
but with his character down the drain
he's like a wolf in sheep's skin
cow dung attitude beneath the beautiful external
but i guess it's good
a blessing in duiguise
flirt as much as he wants
for all i care
it just makes the hate in me for him grow day by day
then maybe one day i can forget about him
and let hatred rid off all the memories"

wrote all this when i didnt have a com to blog...hahaz..hmm though i already got over it but just decide to put it up...hahaz...third one was during march holis..hmm as for the thing i wanted to do to save ervything it failed too..lolz..think the last few sentence abit crap juz didnt know how to end it..lolz..wrote the fourth one when i really detest the sight of two person flirting..but now no more liao..furthermore also dun care liao..hahaz..got over it..dun like him le...so doesnt matter anymore..hahaz...

2005-04-20T16:19:00.000+08:00

hmm..feels so good to be using my com again...lolz..finally my com is fixed..like got so many things to do on the com after being deprived for so long..lolz..

sianz exams coming le..next week..this term passes so quickly...next week jiu exams...hai...quite dumb loh..all the scis in the first week...i will fail next week's tests man...think will fail both scis for two terms..lolz...serious lack of money now....huge financial difficulty...lolz..and i wan to buy alot of stuff lehz...hahaz...nvm...save save and save...

kinda starting to like 3.2..though i nv hated the class but just like more le..coz got closer with ppl like weihao..kanrtiban(ban-ny)..divek(vek-ky)..adlin...jianxiong...darren etc...lolz..kind of fun in class now...keep playin cards and eatin..hahaz...hmm banny and vekky always the food provider..they are damn funny and pervertic..lolz...kind of cool to have them as classmates..even covered the door and windows with posters so teachers frm outside cant see we playin,eating or msging...lolz

life's kind of nice now...with frens all ard me and not liking anyone..lolz..kind of like this life...have someone to msg..and can fool ard..without caring that i like him or what...lolz...guess when u leaves it there..it becomes worse...but when you try too hard..it worsens even faster than ever..so decided to juz give up..since i've have realli try...that's enough...at least i had memories...lolz..

hope everyone have a happy life!!!lolz...

2005-03-13T13:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...it's so long since i updated...juz did the tagboard...had been too lazy to on the com..and no time too baz...like since after exams been reaching home at 6 7 lidat...lolz..not happy with my results...very not happy in fact...no A1s..failed my both sci..what more can i say..my L1R5 is like 20plus...just one maths and one sci itself it's a 11 already...u all can imagine how bad my results were..and elaine gettin a L1R5 of 9 she's still complaining...-_-"..not going out for the whole holi...it's oni a week so i wun die...a way of punishing myself for my results...yepz...

hmm..haven been really happy these few days...did something...not some rash decision...thought abt it before doing it..prepared for all these pain i'm sufferin..but i haven't finish doing what i wan to do...coz he didnt give me a chance to finish it..but keeping to the promise i have to myself..so think no one can really notice the diff..yepz...oni one person noe my promise to myself and oni one person know what i did but that person oni noe what i did and no more than that..feel as if i'm getting more and more quieter...not in the sense of everyday life..but in the sense of my feelings...i juz cant seem to open to my frens anymore...they seem to be frens..juz frens no more than that...i'm seeing despair in my life...in that particular section of my life...seeing all my inadequecy my failures..but i guess it's good...coz i'm so used to cryin...cryin alone....going to try till my very last till i give up accept it and walk on...though i know whatever i do how i try..everything will still be the same..but it juz serves as a consolation for me that at least i tried...i wun look back and regret..regret that perhaps i haven't tried hard enuff....

so boring these few days...went to the library ytd..chose all my books den realised i didnt bring my mum's library card...-_-"...cant use mine coz the fine under my name is too high that i cannot borrow any books till i clear it...so had to go home and take...so dumb...lolz..

had X-country on fri..cycled and played at the beach after that...couldnt find the shower room..we act were dumb enuff to think the toliet nearby had shower..lolz..so we had to drag our tired and dripping wet bodies with the hot sun beating on us to the nearest shower room which we tot was really far away..the one at mac there de..den we saw two andersonions riding the bikes from far..as they slowly came saw that it was siwee and youying..they were like saviours...lolz..hmm then they were very ke lian...the 8 of us dumped our bags on them and they had to carry it for us...lol...they were like er...u all walk first we wait for weeter...buden lucky for them we found a shower room after walking a while...not the really far one..lolz...den after that we started finding bus 36..thxs to ppl giving the wrong directions we got lost..and we had to walk a real long distance...all of us were dead beat...in the end peiying rachel and chloe decided to take the cab...we didnt take with them coz anna and eve dunwan..so we were like nvm..pei them...so the 5 of us kepy walking...for like 1hr laz...reached suntec at 4plus..ltr found out frm peiying they all the fare was oni 6bucks...me and elaine was like omg...we should have took it..felt like killing ourselves..we were like since when did we start treating our frens so well...if we shared...3bucks each...we were saying it's oni 1/3 of our pastamania blah blah blah...lolz...so crap...but nvm...

last movie i watched was series of unforunate events...act wanted to watch howl's moving castle..buden think no time liao...maybe go get the disc...den i wanna watch boogeyman...lolz...but dun think will be able to catch it also lehz...the eye 10 is going to be out too..oh my so many movies and little time and money...lolz

today eve's bdae...haven give her her preszzie...dun even noe what to give..me and elaine decided to ditch the 10bucks deal and get her sumthing...we are drifting anyway...me elaine and her...we actually sensed that she's avoidin us..buden i dun hav time for frenship now...my love life is already in such a mess..the more i touch the things ard me the worse it gets....

2005-03-03T21:03:00.000+08:00

sianz...gor very strict nowadays den very difficult to come up..sianz..yeah holis comin le..lookin foward to it..lolz..hmm..papers startin to come back le..sianz...passed both my maths!!lolz..but i not happy with my emaths...18/25 nia...juz pass sia...chi i very disappointed..27.5/40..my lang getting worse and worse evryday...phys is the worse..10/25...fail like siao..sianz..but kind of expected...physics sucks...lolz..

had training today...after that me anna nat xl and jody stayed to play for awhile...started playin 2 on2...was damn funny anyhow play and ended up rolling on the floors laughin..lolz...

'why did you say all those things in the past..as time passes, it just proves to me how little u meant those words when u said it...'

2005-02-24T19:47:00.000+08:00

hmm..survived a whole ordeal of exams this whole week..lolz..left the last two subs tml..e.maths and chi..now that they changed the chi paper to no 'tian xie han zi' there's seriously no need for me to study chi...lolz..so practisin maths later oni..hmmm i will fail physics for sure..rest is umm ard there ba..lolz...lookin forward to the end of exams...hahaz...

training started le..today first one..released earli coz was rainin...legs was quite wobbly coz of the squats we had to do durin p.e..lolz..

kind of pissed with my mum..she kind of went back on her words..wanted her to get me sumthing before new yr..den she said after new yr den buy..so i agreed..now after new yr le asked her to buy for me..she said she will buy it for me when i get 7As for my exam..wth...for one i wouldnt get those grades..and for two i accepted to wait with NO terms and conditions...she act commented that me whinin to get my stuff is 'qian pian'...den why dun she think that a mum who doesn't keep to her promises is 'qian bian' too?dotz...

2005-02-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

saw it on puqin's blog..so did it..lolz

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2005-02-19T11:08:00.000+08:00

sianz...what a boring sat...going pai nian later..ytd went out shopping with sy...bought two nike socks and a volcom wallet..black one...with the words dirty pink...abit small..so maybe have to get another pouch to put my extra cards..lolz..but hope it isn't too ugly...lolz..

bill come le...sianz...knew i shldnt have agreed to change to the 24hr free incomin plan...now that i oni got 500free sms it's so difficult to not exceed...haiz...mummy came home last nite fuming askin me to pay my bill myself..she say either i pay or she confiscate..sianz...obviously i chose to pay...abt a 1000msges...so 25dollars ba...haiz...nice time to tell me when i'm broke...maybe can win some money tonight and cover up some losses...lolz...losses huh...

exams coming le..but still not in exams mood lehz...how...sianz....was reading a book which i borrowed frm puqin last nite...called 'na xiao zi zhen shuai'..chi book...lolz...cried the hell out of me in some chaps of the book...lolz...but still haven finis the book 1..left abt 50pages out of 274pages like that ba...lolz...got a book 2 too..nice book anyway...

2005-02-17T21:00:00.000+08:00

hmm...watched hide and seek today...lolz...sianz watched two movies in a week..cool..hahaz...two more movies to finis..one is white noise sneaks this wkend den howl's movin castle think after exams den watch...hahaz...nice show..buden first half of the show is boring...second half was scary..hahaz..but the endin is lame...

constantine is a better movie..and brunei banned the showing of it...lolz...coz of the satanic bible, scenes of hell and lucifer blah blah..

today made mdm neo kind of pissed with our class..she was unhappy that alot of the ppl in our class nv hand in our ss work...to makes thing worse me anna nat and elaine came in late...and she sclds in a reali funny way...was tryin to stop laughin when she was scldin...she even shouted the standing abel 'to sit' when she meant to tell him to keep quiet and cont standing...lolz..she asked anna 'is it very funny' too when she was scldin..den anna replied 'i wasn't even laughing'..den she got that dunno what to ans face..was reali funny...lolz..

2005-02-15T19:32:00.000+08:00

juz went to watch constantine with shiyun...lolz..nice show..hahaz...good movie u guys shld catch...hahaz...initial D coming soon saw the poster...cool..lolz...love the animae and love the cast in the movie...jay edison and shawn...cool...lolz...next few shows gonna catch would be howl's moving castle and hide and seek ba...

shiyun ignored her std for one whole day today...lolz coz she's MAD at him for not giving her surprises for vday and that he oni gave her jay vcd and a braclet...lolz...buden something cool is that he act msged her 5times today..and she didnt reply all 5times..lolz...at least she got someone who keeps msging her and gets all worked up when she dun reply..hmm...

anyway helping shannon to tell the ppl out there...he isn't the one who tagged in yr blog if u ever got 'pestered' by the person who named himself shannon in yr tagboard..it's act a guy called hongleng..and he wans to say sorry to those who happened to be 'victims'...lolz..he msged me today to say sry..and very strangely my fone couldn't read his no...lolz..it's a ? instd of the unknown no..and even when i got his no frm him and saved it i still see the ? instd of his name there when he replied my msg...lolz...my fone very anti him like what sy said....wahahaz...

2005-02-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

HapPY vAlEnTinEs dAY eVERyONe!!hmm...anyway gonna share...14 of march is white valentine's (bai se qing ren jie)..a day where u return yr gifts...so thouse who wan to return me gifts...lolz..u noe...wahahahaz...

hmm...quite a nice day..gave out all the chocs..didnt have enuff for some ppl...made the chocs myself..so if is nan chi sorry!hahaz...but thxs for those who gave me..hahaz...hmm..so thxs to elaine anna nat jody xueling chinping peijin sean ljh guodong ojh adlin zhenyang april eunice shiyun geraldine abel youying yuxian huimin peiying rachel ariana chengluan...shld be ard there...anyone i forgot paiseh..lolz..and evelyn and zanyu still owe me...hahaz...

hahz...buden can be considered lonely valentine's ba..no one to pei me go out after sch..hahaz..shiyun,jody,nat went out with their hmm..den elaine went out with yuran and tammi..anna went home..left me and eve..hahaz..stayed back in sch...hmm buden still had a nice day..exams coming..cant slack anymore..and i still dun understand chem the back part of chap 5 on the whole giant molecular compound etc...didnt touch ss and goeg..sianz...

2005-02-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmm...chu yi and er juz passed..won 15bucks on chu yi and lost abit on chu er..hahaz...went marina sq after sch with alvin and jody today...hahaz..jody wanna go there to find presents so juz went coz nth to do...i very big lightbulb lehz...lolz...buden mei ban fa coz i dunwan go home and nobody wan pei me..haha...

hmm bought a necklace and a braclet today...so stupid..the necklace is nt reali i wan de...saw this necklace on the rack so took and tried it...and i broke the string...lolz...so got to buy...luckily oni 5bucks...if those ex ex one i will die liao...lolz..

tml going zanyu's hse pai nian...hahaz...hope all the ppl we ask will go ba...more ppl merrier...hahaz...most prob wearing black tml hope still can win money...lolz....

nowadays alot of good shows lehz...wan to watch howl's moving castle, constantine, hide and seek...buden i gets poorer and poorer everyday...hahz...so sad huh..

2005-02-05T14:43:00.000+08:00

"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be."

got this frm puqin's blog..like it..so put it here...

hmm...i so ke lian..almost everyone ard me are in couples or has someone there..even the person i least expect to have got a std now...-_-"..elaine also got to noe a guy..nat has him...jody has another him..oni left anna me and eve..anna is crazing after a guy..think eve also has a guy in mind..not v.sure bt her..even my gor has one too...and she's really chio...after like so many yrs finally noe got a she in his life le..his hp also got a blue hp chain..[heart]JRY[heart]..gay..guess is the gal buy for him de baz..buden is kinda sweet of tat gal...hmm...den left me only...haiz..lolz..

juz finished tuition...eating spaghetti now..haven't been a nice night and morning..did something reali wrong last night that affected someone...i'm realli sorry...hope u won't still be not happy by the end of the day...sorry that i played i guess i was too much...nv seen u say u dunwan msg b4 except for yr dad and bill stuff...nv seen u like that for the times i noe u also..it really makes me feel reallybad seeing u so not happy and yet not blaming me...it's my fault isn't it..thxs for not ignoring and blaming me...but i rather u to be happy....

2005-02-03T19:18:00.000+08:00

hmm..elaine juz came over to make chocs..erm..we burnt abt half a pac of white choc..afew bucks down the drain..lolz..we saw decomposition of choc to sugar juz now..lolz..made 64chocs..stll got more to go today..hahaz..

hmm anna,jody and nat are not happy with me layjia alvin zanyu and perhaps sean for some reasons...haiz...coz of this today hasn't been a nice day..but i guess i think it's even worse for alvin..hmm really hope they wun be angry anymore...it's not nice to not talk to someone whom u actually fooled ard with everyday..hope the day where everything gets back fine again comes quickly...

tml having geog test on faulting and folding...i'm not in the mood to study loh..hope i wun fail as badly like the prev test..very slpy..

2005-02-02T21:40:00.000+08:00

luan:hahaz..really ar..okie..we exchange..hahaz..yeah i exchanging with alot of ppl lehz..so cool..lolz..

yun:i already told u what i wan to comment on the fone...lolz..=p

my: u really come and tag wor..lolz..i know my blog very cute..hahaz..is mine lehz of course la..wahahaz..

jry:u pathetic lamer..tot u say wan hack my blog and delte everything de..den still come tag for wat..last words ah..lolz..buden if u delete u die..u everytime make fun of me nv knew u would say such things wor..hahaz..why u keep sclding him de..he's not a dumbo and he does not have a loser face like u said...better than u laz..egoistic guy who always off my radio so that u can slp in my rm and force me to go upstairs to get yr laptop or adaptor or both..-_-"..the my words is not bullshit okie..is yr beloved sis's de feelings lehz..buden thxs for yr advice..hahaz..and den hor note this fact...u are the first one who told me my life really sucks coz mummy dun let me go out..-_-"...lolz..buden thxs gor!

hahaz...nth much...went yishun to watch b'girls match with bowen..won..buden still cannot get into next rd coz we lost to a.i and northland...just heard frm layjia that jody they all got sclded...coz today they purposely ate slowly to drag the time so that me layjia sean alvin zanyu can board the bus with them..act we were granted to leave early at 2.30 to go and support them..buden when we came out we realise that sean and alvin was not granted..so we decided to wait for them..so the fact that they dragged the time and we still did not board the bus got them a scldin loh..sorriez nehz...hmm..lost one of my portfolio writings so got to write again...haiz..got back my geog mapwork test...2/10..cool huh...i will fail my geog under hasnizah..fri got another test on folding and faulting..got to study everything all over coz i didnt learn ath frm her lessons..her teaching method sucks...

2005-01-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

hmm..reached home at 8.40lidat...mummy was quite angry..buden in the end she also nv really do ath...when i came into the hse..she was sitting there den she asked me go to her..lolz..den she wanted me to explain to her..so i told her loh..den she jiu nv scld liao..hahaz..took cab home laz...sianz..even more broke now..and worse that uncle dunno his way to woodlands...lolz..den need me teach him..hai hao i know the way..if normal days when in dad's car i not observant today will reach home ltr le...wahahaz..lolz..i'm so bhb...

elaine juz called and said taka converse got sale...den i was like i dunwan go..lolz..dunwan spend any more money..oni way is to dun go..den jiu wun get tempted..lolz..

today had training..though is for team de..buden juz go..anna also went..den when they were playin the strategic games..i was companying anna to shoot..even though i'm not a shooter..buden also nth to do..hahaz..my aiming damn lousy laz...den i also trying to learn how to flick..hmm..den got once when i tried to save the ball..den i fell butt down at the bushes there..luckily there's a net..buden i was totally sitting on the grass just that a net was keeping me up..lolz..anna was like laughing till siao..den i juz sit there and laugh until anna came and pull me up..hahaz..so malu..lolz..buden think not many ppl notice baz..hahaz..

2005-01-27T19:07:00.000+08:00

c'girls won amk!!!cool rite?!lolz...last yr they trashed us laz..and they were zonal top last yr..cool rite..it was a very nice game..score was 18:17..hahaz..their coach's face was damn red..like will bao xue guan liao tat..lolz..hmm..too bad bballers nv win..if not it will be three sports who competing today all win..coz vballers also won the match today..but nvm..bballers jia you baz...

ytd b'div lost to a.i..hmm..didnt go and watch it..act wanted de...but coz of that stupid efl..ended at 3.20..kept us back for 50mins..and the match started at 3...so alvin,sean,zanyu and me took cab there..when we were reaching jody told alvin no need go le..ending soon liao..so we were like sian..den we decided we meet them at burger king yishun...yepz..sat there and talked till 6.30..den jiu go home...

sick these few days..like gonna lose voice like tat..buden in the end will still talk alot de..hahaz..but can feel that lump in my throat...den often cough also..hahaz..so xin ku..hahaz...

2005-01-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

hmm..our b'div won woodgrove..c'div trashed punggol and lost to yck..tml b'div have a match with a.i..would be a tough match..but hope can win baz..lolz..hmm..couldn't go and watch the woodgrove match coz had mastery..hmm..bullshit to those who told me u wun fail mastery..lolz..hmm..it's kind of more than basics..but i dun think i will fail..but i wun pass well either..hahaz..i'm offically broke..last week..my wallet still had like 10plus..took my pocket money and used it..now it's a less than 10..coz spent my money on valentine's day de present..it's a frenship day to me..hahaz..coz i'm single..and to make sure i wun spend a lonely valentines..gonna exchange presents..and give to ppl ard also..hahaz..

2005-01-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

hmm..went out today..and ytd..went to the same place in fact..coz there was this sale in the convention hall of suntec..went there ytd with elaine den today went again coz evelyn wans to go..yepz..elaine got tonnes of stuff..i oni got erm..a sweater ytd..still considering whether i shld wear it as a shirt anot..and today a dress which the three of us bought together..and a abercrombie and fitch de tee..hahaz..sianz...very tired this few days..even slpt in maths that day..dunno why like no matter how early i sleep i cant seem to wake up and feel really energetic...anyway..i'm oni left with a pathetic 14bucks..i'm so sad..and i still wan to buy jay the concert that disc...20.95 in hmv..dunno if it will be cheaper in sembawang music centre or something..but definitely will buy it..hahaz..it's a collection kind of thing..ever since i started getting crazy about jay..bought all his albums...hahaz...no money to go his concert though...hahaz..my wish is that i can have more money...lolz...

2005-01-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

my right eyelid became single these few days..been thinking alot this few days and i kind of thought it through...i guess i cant be that selfish to wan our frenship back..for this few weeks really kind of cannot adapt to the not msging u life..i nv knew that i had actually started to rely on you..it was really nice for you to be always there for me..that i kind of start to take it for granted..act when we started to drift i wasn't realli affected coz i had always thought it's just that we havent been msging..but if we gonna start msging again we will get back like the past..what a beautiful mindset i had there..i'm may be abit sad that i kind of lost u but mostly affected that u said we couldn't get back to the past..u noe i act cried...i dunno why..but kind of i didnt say nite to sleep but act to cry..i had always tot that we can still be as good as ever..that nite i told myself..i'm gonna prove to you and myself that we still can go back to the past..and the only way is to keep msging u like the past...no doubt the many times in between i feel like giving up..no matter how thick skinned i had to be..i rmb once..i msged u in the morning..u replied and den u said u need to do yr maths msg me ltr..but u nv did..and u didn't intend to do it in the first place rite?so i msged u..and when sch ends u didnt reply again..i tot it was normal..in the past u would oni reply when u are going home..so i waited..till night falls..and i didnt receive any..so i msged u another time..three times..it's a record i've nv touched..msg a guy three times in a day when he didnt reply me?i've nv been that thick skin b4 i was nv that kind of person to try and try again...like how i rather sit in the darkness and adapt to it then to try to the climb up the hole i fell from when handling personal relations...afew times u didnt reply me too..didnt know whether it's u nv receive or what..but kind of nice time to not receive it..maybe it's just not fated for me to succeed to getting back close with u..and i start to kind of think..so what if i can still be jealous...if i can still whine..everything will be different..it will be a one person thing..u wun get jealous anymore..you wun care if i whine or not..all u would do is to say oh..that's all u need to do anyway..so what if i get u back..i'm being too selfish isn't it..i wan to have the best of both...i wan to cont liking him and yet be real good with u...even if u did matter to me in my heart...but he matters too..like how i can't forget him..even if we be as close as the past..i will still be thinking of him..so i guess the best is to let it go..i guess i cant have the best of both...i rmb once u told me bt yr troubles..my advice to u is that time will reveal everything..i dunno whether the gal u were talking abt is me..if it's me..why i would give that advice is coz i wasn't sure bt who u are to me..and that i tot we still have time..i like it that way..but wht i didnt know is we lost to time..and other distractions perhaps...or maybe i being too thick skin here again...but anyway juz wanna thx u for all the times u gave..u kind of filled my dec holi with fun and laughter..though i nv did realise it until i dunhav those days anymore..it was really comforting to know that u were always there..when i suddenly juz get all emotional and misses him alot..when i were really pissed bt things..and sweet to know that act someone out there would act feel somethng out of me talking to other guys..and i act meant all those things i said when we were close..but i dunno whether u meant it like i do..maybe not anymore?..maybe i will still find u when i have probs..but i guess like u said we cant get back anymore..so i will try to stop myself from msging u evryday...'get a life' like elaine had said i guess...yepz but still frens forever..

If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.

2005-01-16T13:54:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..nth much these few days actually..juz kind of troubled bt some stuff..didnt realise what i had till i lost it..hmm..kind of so me..trying to decide whether i shld just put it down and continue losin it like that..or do something to try to salvage it back..but perhaps i shouldnt disturb this whole thing coz he may like it that way...really happy with her or something...hate all this thinking why cant things just go on smoothly and nicely like the past...and yet i cant leave it like that...the longer it goes..the worse it gets..

2005-01-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

"i thought i could take it..knew that it was expected..but actually i couldn't handle it as well as i imagined..."

hmm..sianz..another normal day...team results out le..i didn't go in..as usual..kind of expected coz my skills kinda suck..yeah..nat went into main..anna is timekeeper..sianz...hmm today i forgot to bring my shoebag out of sch...den realise it when i was at bus stop..coz it was 7plus...den need to run back to get it..made xueling and jody missed a bus just to wait for me..hmm couldn't find it in the court so tot that it might be in class...ran to temp blk..den very dark...damn scared...took my usual route which will pass by 4.1 den jiu tot of the story peijin told me abt 4.1..story is abt a little boy in the class or something de...den when pass by i didnt dare to look la..juz cheong...den opened the door to my class...buden too dark dun dare go in again...lolz..didn't even noe where is the lights..hahaz...so ran back to the canteen to get peijin to pei me go..in the end she also scared laz..lolz..buden with another person dere more fang xin..in the end is in my class..hahaz...den we sprinted along the alley coz we scared got things standing there...lolz!!buden muz really thx her..on the way to canteen even saw daryl walking out..den got the temptation to go forward and ask him help me take laz...even though i dun even noe him..hahahaz...buden in the end dunhav..so stupid rite..temp blk so creepy with all the lights off...hahahaz..hmm..

2005-01-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..another normal day..just that kenna flu..think is coz the classroom very cold..hahaz..hope is those one day two day kind..lolz..hmm..after sch was cheonging tuition hmwk..hahz..was like tuition at 4 buden i haven even touched the two amaths exercises i was supposed to do..even during lunch and on mrt i was cheonging laz..den in the end i called my tuition teacher and told her that i may notbe able to make it home by 4 can later not..lolz..so that i can have more time to do..hahaz..elaine was commenting i look like some nerdy girl who's obsessed with studying..lolz..yeah i'm..coz i procastinated for 2whole weeks before i decided to be one..and i have only like afew hrs to finis everything including travelling home time and stuff..hahaz...in the end when i reached home i did finished one exercise den i jiu gave up le..i went to sleep..until the teacher was at my doorsteps before i sprang up and gathered the books needed..den i told her that i dun understand that exercise..hahaz..so kinda of get off the hook..hahaz..hmm..kinda regret the seats i chose..hahaz..coz it's not exactly at the corner..but it's the nearest two table seats to the door and air con..hahaz..buden if use hp and stuff frm outside can see clearly..and think teacher also can see..so scary..luckily our class is quite ulu de..hahaz..kinda of sian this few day nobody pei me msg de..hahaz..kinda give up on the person whom i have msged for quite some long time..hahaz...coz he like doesn't seem really interested anymore den this few days also nv reply me after some msges..hahaz..so jiu gave up le..somemore also heard he got new person to msg..so juz wish him fun baz..hahaz...

2005-01-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

hmmm...spent 62.90today laz!!!omg...i'm so broke...left 10plus and still need to return anna 4bucks fro xl present...omg...luckily got pocket money now..can save..hahaz..hmm..29 on a mango top..19.90 on a far east brought de top..is a collared tee with a cute small pink devil on the top left hand size..hahaz..3.50 on neoprints..5.6o on a zinger meal..4.90 on a 'ca-ra-bi-na'..paiseh dunno how to spell lolz...die le loh..i still wan to buy a billabong skirt lehz..act i dunno shld buy that or settle for a denim skirt which i have yet to find..hahaz..elaine commented i shld get the billabong de coz she dun like demin said to be very lian-ish..but either way i got to fork out my own money coz think it's too much to get from my mum again..hahaz..all new year clothes..and she already paid for a denim dress, a three quarts, a mini-skirt, 4shirts,2 tees and a slip on..and i still trying to persuade her to buy me levi's jeans..hahaz..realli hope can get it..hahaz..so any other shirts i wan to buy now and the skirt will buy myself le loh..lolz..so sad..hahaz...hmm saw a gal kenna caught in 77th street also...this gal stole and got caught den the police was called to go down..she was sitting in the changing room crying with the police waiting outside..lolz..cool...so stupid..if i'm her and i gonna steal...i wun steal it from 77th street..it's kind of the easier places to get caught..hahaz...and evelyn broke her slip-ons when we were taking neoprint...lolz!!..hahaz..and saw a guy called julian today..got his name behind his shirt so knew..hockey player i think coz holding hockey stick..omghe's so cute!!!!and cool!!!!hahahaz...hmm buden anna say she dun like coz she says he's short..lolz...i so totally dun mind..the guy i like is short too what..lolz..

2005-01-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

hmm some interesting things happen ytd..VERY interesting in fact..hahaz...first day went to sch in sch uni..quite bu xi guan..feel like the sch uni so long..hahaz..hmm and nat commented my belt seems tighter le..last yr was lower..haiz..i grow fat le!!wah..lolz..starting of the day mr lim went to the sex edu course for sec4..so we were free..den we got weihao as our chairman..lolz..stupid rite..but nvm he's alrite and quite nice too..hmm decided on our class cheer...it was 1/2'03 class cheer..it's very stupid but erm too lazy to comment and to think of another one..so juz keep quiet..den class tee..luckily our class is the kind of black and white colour class thing..dun like lime green orange this type of colour for our class tee..hahaz..so class tee most prob would be black...cool..den also will be polo tee..hahaz..i nominated them de lehz..hahaz..coz cannot stand 2yrs of ugly class tee le..so wan it a nice one..buden too bad i'm not good in art..but reali hope de one whose designing the tee make it as simple as possible..realli hope so..hahaz..den went for the talks..slept thru half of it..think alot of ppl slpt baz..at least the ppl ard me..hahaz..hmm me anna and nat..and saw ljh slping too..hahaz..den during that 1hr recess..played netball with alvin,zanyu and yongkiat..3on3..hahaz..and we won!!!yea!!hahaz..6:5..hahaz..perhaps gonna play again on mon..coz alvin wans to win us..nat dun believed that we won them and wans to win them again and anna felt that they shld not have scored so many times...hahaz..had this concert after that..now for the first interesting thing..coz it was kinda cramped on all..i was squeezing thru the sea of bodies..so i brushed past a guy..and very 'coincidentally' our hands are at the same level..so when we brushed past..we sorta of held our hands together not those interlock kind obviously..for afew secs oni..buden it was ewwww!!!and the guy was not good looking at all la!!but i forgot how he look like le..lolz..den sat down and see the concert...omg gary and ben so cute..hahaz..or rather gary is cool ben is cute..hahaz..wonder what's beneath their tees..wahahaz..no la juz think they would have reali nice 6packs..hahaz..hmm..swimmers..and best till gary and another guy got a degree on psychology laz!!!omg so cool!!!i love psychology la..i wan to study it..lolz..my aspiration..hahaz..had training later..2nd interesting thing..hahaz..hmm when we had our first break...xl told me evona found my wallet and xl already helped me put on my bag..i was like..*stunned*'i thought they were in my bag?'...lolz..i didnt even kow they were lost..hahaz...but luckily nv lose anything..wahahhaz..my lucky day..so heng...hahahaz..reali muz thx evona...hahaz...

2005-01-05T18:53:00.000+08:00

hmm sianz...went to 3day sec3 cap at dairy farm road..supposingly we were the first or second batch..but the camp is reali damn dirty..esp the toilet..i was trying damn hard to survive that freaking toilet..there were insects' wings, mud, water everywhere the toilet floor..even the toilet bowl..gross rite?!den there was this smell..like many things mixed together..a really unimaginable stench...it as if shit, mud and sweat all combined into one..eww..lolz..and the food was realli measely and horrible..the servings aren't even enough to fill our stomach..furthermore the food is abit out of taste..every meal i will give my frens food..no doubt it's vege, fish,pineappe..lolz..the camp chief was even worse..every time we sees her..we will get a scolding...she's so demanding..and bitchy..putting her fats all ard..the onli time when we saw her foolin with us was when MRS TAN was here..wth..faker..and she always theatening to take away our meals or bath...and heard that she gave another grp oni 2mins to bathe...2mins?!wth...who can break that record...on the first day had some teambuilding games..and i sat on a guy laz!!!ewwww...den at night had this night walk...i was trying hard not to scream though we were walking by 4s..lolz..but in the end i still screamed softly..thrice i think..coz a trainer juz walk silently pass me..another two i forgot le..buden the destination we reached was really nice at night..really very sad that there was no stars..coz it was a rainy night full of clouds..hahaz..i would love it if there was stars...hahaz..2nd day..had nature trail...made my track pants all muddy..luckily no mosquito bites..lolz..walked abt 6km..all of us weren't even looking at the greenery ard us laz..we were busy looking at the steps..coz we walked thru the forest with all the stones and mud and leaves and stuff all ard the ground..if we dun concentrate..we wil fall..just that trip..i nearly fell 8times..nearly..hahaz..den also had area cleanin.got to clean the toilets..ewww!!!i've nv washed a toilet before la..so has elaine evelyn anna and natalie..so we kinda of shirk the responsibility..is shirk the right spelling?nvm..hahaz..and bad news lehz...although we 5were all very happy that we got into the same class..buden on the 2nd day..mr yeo came and told us evelyn is in 3.1 lehz!!haiz..today tried to pei her appeal..den vp say he will see to it after talking to her for quite some time..haha..really hope she would be able to stay in 3.2..

2004-12-31T20:06:00.000+08:00

Your element is Rain: Sad, lonely, distant and
unique. You are quite distant from emotion and
people, but you have been made this way by one
thing or another. You are truly unique yet fail
to see it, and are quite creative be it in art,
music, writing, ect.. You used to let people in
now you don't even bother to try having been
hurt so many times in the past. Your attitude
is that you don't need anyone but yourself,
people are just trouble waiting to happen. But
you really do want to trust someone no matter
if you see it or not, deep down your waiting
for someone to come and set you free. This kind
of depression can turn dangerous, don't let
them get to you. Not everyone in the world will
hurt you, humans are humans and are not
perfect. So most likely sooner or later you'll
meet someone who feels like you do and perhaps
your shell will eventually disappear.

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2004-12-31T19:10:00.000+08:00

Sorrowdweller. You are not overcome by anger nor
happiness. Your emotions are pretty well
balanced, but you do tend to get somewhat
emotional at times leaning towards depression
and saddness. You have your own views of the
world and while you do not see the beauty of
life, you are not completely overwhelmed by
darkness. Live and let live just because.

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2004-12-31T18:31:00.000+08:00

Goddess of the Moon. Beauty, yet a sadness lurks
about you at times. But hey, pain is beauty,
right?

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2004-12-31T18:20:00.000+08:00

hmm..another one..though this is the one that came out when i finised the test..i would definitely prefer the 2nd one...think both fits me well..juz at different times of the day..

B:

Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile

Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Planet: Jupiter Hair
Color: Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."

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I:

Your Beauty lies
in Sadness. Lonely, depressed and feeling broken.
For whatever reason, you see
this world only for the bad that it holds carrying
the burdens of yourself and
others. Some people like to be with you and your
unique vantage point when they
are down, you are someone who can sympathize with
them. But you find yourself
alone again when they seem to find a solution and
are happy again, yet you still
are stuck in this rut. Do not worry, you will make
it out at some time. Everyone
does, if you try. When you are seen all others want
to do is make your pain go
away, but that is something only you can do. You
probably keep to yourself a lot
and don't like to let people in, afraid to be hurt
again. You feel empty and
helpless and your looks reflect that, often seen
with tears in your eyes.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Earth Animal: Robin Color:
Grays, Blacks, Dark
Colors Song: Tourniquet by Evanescence
Expression:
Tearful Frown

Gemstone:
Aquamarine Mythological Creature: Spirit,
Gargoyle Planet: Mercury Hair
Color: Blue-Black Eye Color:
Gray

Quote:
"Am I too lost to be saved?"

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2004-12-31T17:58:00.000+08:00

did others too..so bored..looks nice..so did it..lolz..

Fun loving, childish, innocent and pure
You are a sprite of the Air: Fun loving and
childish your naive nature only enhances how
truly cute you are! You may come off as too
childish but only because your not burdened
with all the rules and regulations of
adulthood. You are carefree most of the time
spending your days playing tag or naming all
the clouds you see in the sky. You are
generally kind to everyone because you have
lots of love and happiness to share! Making
friends comes easy because they strive for the
innocence you possess but be careful, being as
nice and kind hearted as you are people will
try to manipulate your nature if they have not
already. Don't ever let anyone mold you to
their standards although I doubt anyone could.

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2004-12-31T13:09:00.000+08:00

hmm..woke up at 11 today...act wanted to cont slping de..buden realise that tuition was at 2.30 den haven started on my amaths and emaths hmwk..so started doing..in the end i didnt know how to do my amaths except for 2qns..so i gave up..totali forgot what she taught me..lolz..den started on my emaths..now finis le...ytd went to sch to do banner..hahaz..the time i went to sch to slack is more than the time i reali sit down and help to paint la..lolz..i think i spent oni like 10mins painting jiu run off liao..hahaz..hmm den after that went to orchard with nat..she wan buy sch bag and wallet..hmm coz quite late liao no time to go other place..hmm she bought a quiksilver de bag and billabong de wallet..even though the wallet is white buden she says she like it alot..hahaz..hmm..and i'm so totali regretting tht i bought my sch bag..when elaine saw the bag i wanted..she was like..this bag is so shiyun-ish..coz it's pink..and some typical bag shiyun would take la..hahaz..buden nat say that pink bag nicer...hahaz..elaine thinks it's alrite but she prefers the bag i bought..hmm..anyway isetan also no exchange policy for bags..so i also cant change..too bad loh..hahaz..den she came over to my hse..coz her parents were out in a dinner..den no one at home..hmm buden my relatives and erm another family with no blood relations but quite close de came..that family got very cute kids la..a chelsea and xavier..hahaz..the chelsea is damn chio though she's oni 4..hahaz..and she speaks good eng for a 4yr old..hahaz..so was playing with her..she did some drawing..blew bubbles and played family(the game where there are sis and mom and stuff)...lolz..so was playin with her..and she's so damn clean la..she washes her hands after drawing,blowing bubbles, when her saliva got onto her hand when she put her finger into her mouth etc..so cute..hahaz..elaine was commenting u are those typical kindergarden teacher..hahaz..and she asked why dun u treat yr bro like that..hahaz.i guess coz he's not cute and not as innocent and obedient as her..wahahaz..i'm so bad..lolz..hmm..den they left at 12plus..was talking on the fone..till 3..den elaine was doing math..coz she lost touch with it for the whole holi and wants to try b4 tat mastery test..hahaz..after i put down the fone jiu started talkin with her..hmm we came up with a plan..though seems quite bad coz it's mei ban fa coz we wan to sit together..buden how abt evelyn?so erm we came out with a way loh..yea..

2004-12-29T21:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm..did nth much also this few days..ytd went to sch to do the netball banner for the cca open hse..den the other gals went amk central to buy thepaint and cloth and stuff..den me nat anna jody lazy go..so we stayed in sch..hahaz..den jody was telling me got isetan private sale..den oni got tixs de ppl can go in..den she say alvin got wanna go not..so in the end 3plus when the gals finalli finished buying we decided to go le..lolz..hahaz..went there spent 40plus..wah den left 20plus nia so pathetic..bought a levi's shirt and a folder to put my notes in de..den also got buy pe attire in sch..buden luckily the pe attire and folder can refund from money...hahaz...today morning went for haircut...act also not cut..coz length no diff..i oni trim nia..mummy finally let me leave long le...hahaz..hmm..den after that coz the class allocation came out..den me anna eve and nat all in 3.2 oni elaine in 3.1...den she wan appeal..so i pei her go sch loh...den when reach there jiu started finding ppl who's in 3.2 who wan to go 3.1..in the end who found adlin..so we waited for mdm wong to finis her meeting at 4...den go there liao..mrs muthu keep say mdm wong say she wun entertain any appeals..hahaz..den after that elaine damn desperate coz she dunwan stay in 3.1..den v.p saw her..den started talking to her..till 6.30 like that loh..den we haven eat lunch lehz..stomach was grumbling like siao liao..buden can't eat after that also coz need go home eat dinner..buden he talked and talked in the end also no use..can't change..sian..hahaz...so stupid...

2004-12-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..had bbq on sun...den after that went to my cousin's hse for slpover..i'm still here in fact..haha..hmm..ytd nite..we wanted to watch meet the fockers..i know it's nc..decide to sneak in anyway..my other cousins even went all the way home to get the ic..coz they were coming to my hse and they see no pt to bring their wallet..and when we finalli reach there...the cinema was close...CLOSE..we were like pengz..we tot cathay had midnight movies..and it was a sun..we didn't know it was close as there was no newspapers that day and we oni referred to the prev day one..and there was..a 10,11 and 12 slot..so we juz went..lolx..luckily our uncle who fetched us there can still turn back...hahaz...so stupid loh..later went to their hse and watched fruits basket for the whole nite..coz they haven watched it b4...hahaz..hmm den bt 5plus den fall asleep..woke up and went mac to eat..hmm..also watched saw today...it's a damn stupid movie...the whole show is abt these two chained guys in a locked up room..and how they try to save themselves..and figure out the person who did those thing to them..and the person act...is a man lying in the middle of the room with a pool of blood acting dead...-_-"..tml going back to sch..coz need to prepare for the cca open house or something de..yea..luckily is afternoon..hahaz...

2004-12-27T19:55:00.000+08:00

hmm..cont what i wanted to say?erm..that nite..sorry abt the pool thing..though it was really kinda stupid to talk on the fone in the water itself..but it wasn't of any other reasons just that i didn't want to swim..coz it was so cold and after dinner..yepz..erm and i dun reali think we lost interest in talking on the fone..i mean..okie in the day u are always out..at night is either i cant call out coz of my mum or i would call my other frens..so..yea and if u dunno...i dread calling u when u are out with yuran and tammi..state an example..no offence..like that day christmas eve?i called to asked u whether we had a geog notebook for notes this yr..but coz u were out with yuran they all..u had that tone on u..and those what notebook i dun do notes..maybe i've burnt them and stuff..but u and me know clearly that u do do notes...and i just asked a simple qn whether we did notes on a book this yr..but u had to say alot..on how 'heck care' bt yr studies u seem to be...i mean is it to make sure that yuran and tammi wouldn't comment u or perhaps us..or what?hmm yea..my opinions..no offence..and i think something u are concern abt is we cant talk anymore?that we can't bare our hearts anymore? like how we used to be?hmm..i think i dun realli like to talk bt how i feel now..esp when the thing is still going on..like that time my parents thing..now that they reconcile..i dun mind talking bt it anymore..but when it's still going..i dun reali think i can say it out..coz some things are better in the heart..furthermore my probs most of the time are not yr probs..u trouble bt money..bt shopping..u shld know what that always get me emotional..i rmb u told me once..maybe i shld stop this crazy craze of mine..it's getting overboard..i dun regard it as a crazy craze...and it seems to me ppl ard me sees me as a fanatic..so i rather keep quiet and not comment on anything that they think...all of u have seen me crazy..but how many times have u seen me cry over him?starting of yr maybe?but not now..not anymore..i guess it's not the frenship that's wrong..but juz the character changes..i hate it when i says everything and ppl juz dun get the whole thing and diss it off..if that is gonna happen i rather i keep quiet..but seriously..i'm not amazed that we are still close that we still go out shopping and stuff...i mean alot of our frens ard us are juz sch mates..but u and i know that we are not..maybe like that it may juz prove we do not need any daily talkings on the fone and meetings to maintain our frenship...like what eve tot is the main factor to affect or maintain any frenship..

2004-12-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

"Hey!. juz wanted to come up and blog since i couldnt sleep. did i say i went to zj;s hse for a sleepover, okay, sort of. BUt yes, although i crapped alot on how i'm grateful and all.. maybe she;s this shopping partner and buddyl. but i guess i've been too occupied with my own stuff that i neglect some other stuff. we couldnt find things to do at all at night. chatting was one alternative..but i couldnt open myself up. Its weird how we do not have things to say anymore. Maybe we've juz turned to others. but yes, we used to chat alot on the phone. not anymore i guess, we;ve lost interest. someone did tell me i've been more quiet these days.. agreed? not talking much, no more huge laughter, but more of a half-smile. i wonder if its true. Oh and even when we went for a nite dip, which was this perfect time and place to talk, we didnt.. instead i ended up swimming and she was talking on the phone. but a good thing was i found peace.. i was floating on the water, the sky was beautiful and there was no one. my eyes were in the water, it was quiet...calm. i enjoyed it.. looks like i still like this calmness"...hmmm...this is what elaine blogged...heyz hmm sorry...realli happy that hmm i'm yr shopping partner...hahaz..u are the one who trained me to shop..so of course laz..hmm..anyway i dun think it's just u that been too occupied with yr stuff..i have been cooped up with my stuff too..act..u weren't the oni one having that 'shit i can't open up feeling'..hmm i guess both of us have stuff that we dun wan to talk abt at that point of time..i know we were reali quiet that nite..juz listening to the radio and deep in our own thoughts..but i guess all it matters is yr exsistance isn't it?as long u're there..it makes no much diff that we are cooping ourselves up or laughing our heads off everything...i rmb u tried striking that conver in the pool asking what's the prob with my parents..but i changed the conver...not that we couldn't talk abt anything anymore..but juz that i didn't reali wan to talk abt it..i mean i didnt know the cause..i juz know that one day they came back with those back facing each other attitude..den my mum started telling me bt she's prepared for divorce and washing her hands off my dad's stuff in work..it was realli tormenting but i didnt want to face it with anybody..hmm yea..i mean i rmb i quarrel with my bro juz bcoz no one wanted to bring to buy my books...my dad was out bringing my younger bro for tuition..i'm at the office with my mum heck caring everything with that i dunno how u gonna buy and i dun care attitude..she even suggested that i go and buy it myself den bring it home myself using public transport when she knew that i needed to go out with sy ltr to celebrate my bdae..so in the end i went to ask my bro..juz bcoz he dunwan to add a weight of two bags of books to his beloved car..he quarreled with me..oh gosh my books are so heavy it can crush his car up..he need a tank of oil juz to bring me frm sch to amk mrt if that two bags are on the car..i rmb he commented that i got to be independent why dun i juz bring it home myself...i was like hey i'm still 14 and u?u are 23..how independent u expect me to be..u be got until like that what's the point...now that mum and dad is quarreling what u wan me to do...it's my bdae tml loh..and i still need to celebrate with my fren ltr how the hell u wan me to bring the stuff back..i mean i was realli crying the hell out..is like ever since they quarrelled i even need to quarrel with my gor juz to buy my books..hmm yea...anyway my mum is real pissed real now bcoz i been dragging the time i'm using the com..so hmm i will complete it some other time maybe tml..okie..

2004-12-23T19:39:00.000+08:00

hmm...didn't really do much this week..hahaz..mon..elaine came over for a swim den we watched dawn of the dead, dreamcatcher and darkness falls...hmm...still got another three shows exorcist, house of the dead and how to lose a guy in ten days...will watch it with elaine when she comes over another time..hahaz..some old shows...lolz..borrowed the dvd frm my cousin..hahaz..hmm...on sun was watching stepford wives at my cousin's hse..hmm it's nice..damn freaky..hahaz..hmm..tue went training..last training of the yr le..hahaz...next one would start on the thur when sch reopens..hmm..hahaz...had tuition on wed...hmm she started on A maths..i gonna die..hahaz...hmm..is like i dread learning now..i wan to play the rest of my holis left...why does she teach a maths first and not e maths?hai..i would definitely prefer to learn e maths first..hahaz..hmm..ytd went my mum's office helped her count money..i was fast ytd..hahaz..count three bags of money nehz..more than 10000plus..got sense of achievement..hahaz..hmm..today got tuition again..coz i skipped last week tuition..hahaz..last week i told her the day before the day we are having tuition that i'm not free so she pushed it to wed loh..hahaz...hmm..act. i'm not not free..juz that i couldn't complete the hmwk..wahahaz...hmm later in the day my didi and dad going genting for one nite..hahaz..coz my dad need to go there and get money frm his fren...his fren own him or something de...hahaz..hmm...tml mummy wan to go out shopping..hahaz...i keep telling mummy public holi alot nv open de..den she sclded me say i stubborn say is shopping centre how can no open...i was like pengz wadeva..anyway i already bought what i needed except for my clothes...dunwan listen also mei ban fa..hahaz..hmm and evrything's fine now..hahaz..no prob le..dunhav how they reconcile..buden i dun care...as long as they reconcile jiu can liao...wun face those stupid probs and quarrels with my gor again which always end up saying u be gor be until like that what's the point..den he will give in buden with a very black face...lolz..hahaz..hmm..bill come liao..921msges..hahaz...it's not my prob coz i tot my mthly bill is until 13 de..buden this bill come is count frm 16nov to 16dec lehz..den my sms counter until dec13 is nv exceed 900 de..hahaz...hmm lolz..buden doubt my mum would accept this explanation..lolz..

2004-12-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

hmm..today i gonna write 2posts..one on my life..another on today..yepz..today is my bdae..some of ppl still owe me presents loh..hahz..elaine..evelyn..ojh..ljh..shiyun..hmm..dunno nat and xl they all giving not..buden hope yesh baz..lolz..hmm..den koonting treated me to the movie national treasure ytd..but got terms and conditions de..hahaz...nice show..den received 8happy bdae msges..haha..hmm..may sounds pathetic to others buden i reali very happy..coz last yr oni 2 or 3..from the first to eighth baz..hmm wanna thx ojh...ljh..sean...shiyun...another guy whom i dunwan to say..koon ting..siwee...and ariana...hansel told me thru msn..raymond whom i dunno is anderson or my outside de fren wished me happy belated...hahz..elaine came over for slpover..buden didnt do much coz was tired..hmm...went out shopping today..cool..bought back alot of things...lolz..spent 200plus...den mummy oni give me 100..so got to fork out the rest myself..afew things bought the same with elaine...hmm..bought billabong de sch bag...it's the nicest bag i can find though i dun reali like billabong..yepz..den bought sch shoe..in the end bought kappa de..coz dunhav nice de..hmm..den ripcurl de water bottle..is pink de..bought with elaine..haha..hmm den adidas de shoebag..i dunwan to use my now de shoebag le so went to buy one..hmm..den adidas de sb..with elaine also..den erm..fox de sweater and track pants..track pants is the same with elaine..yepz..bought almost everything i wan le..lolz..den had jack's place for lunch...also got an organiser..not reali but juz the papers in the organiser coz i already got one..yepz..reali spent lots today..hahaz..not bad laz..nice day...ytd is went out with shiyun and koon ting..lol...so long nv see kt le..he didnt reali change much..hahaz...

2004-12-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm the next posting..hmm...my life is in a mess now..and the worse thing is it's not within my control...he told me to juz let the adults to settle..but i reali hate it when i see them like that..and they reali affected me and my life alot..i guess it's my age?my two bros are too old to really care bt it..and my younger bro is too young to feel it...i'm like experiencing what not many of my frens had experienced b4..except for one guy i know i guess...the oni guy who knows too..but..he doesnt seem that interested i think?that's what i got when i msged him...what interest can he show if he stop replying after 4msges?i juz hope everything will be alrite..juz like some normal arguement and after a few days it will be alrite...i hope she will give in or maybe he do something to salvage the whole thing...at first i tot it would not be serious..but frm this situation i reali doubt so..but i reali hope all that she told me is not the truth juz some anger words..i reali hope..i'm like dreading to go home now..it's like i see all those..everything seem so clear...how she use all means to avoid him how he doesnt realli seem to be affected..how i get restricted frm money means to outing to my privacy in my room at night...the arguements i have with my eldest bro..and the many disastrous endings that i cant imagine and often make me end up dropping tears...i dunwan all this to happen...let's pray and hope that everything is juz gonna turn out fine...that nth will happen...

2004-12-11T19:37:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..hahaz...on wed went to my mum's office to help her count money..hahaz..hmm..took a whole afternoon to count 4000plus..alot of times got mistake den got to recount over and over...so patience demanding..lolz..den the rest of the afternoon was using the com...hahaz..hmm thurs went training...got to run compound..sianz..long time nv run liao coz past trainings always keep rainin...fri went my mum's office to count money again..hahaz..this time took a longer time..until 4plus den finis..hahaz...hmm..today had tuition in the morning...had to finis 3/4 of the assesment for hmwk loh..in one week lehz!i wan die liao loh..ben lai oni 2exercises den after that she jiu say do whole thing..sianz..den after tht went swimmin with elaine..the water was reali freezing..until limbs will almost numb diao de..somemore was raining also..hahaz..hmm..talked to my fren at nite till 2plus 3 these few days...very stupid..have to wait for my mum to sleep den can talk..hahaz..hmm..11.40 like that..like doing some bad things like that..buden mei ban fa..coz mummy dun like me tlk on fone...esp.to guys..hmm..sianz..tml having netball carnival at kallang den ltr can go see match..dunno shld be hapi or not..coz got to meet at 6.45outside sch lehz!!!so early loh..den tonite axn got anaconda until 12...dunno shld watch not..oni watched anacondas so interested in the part1 since part2 was nice..scared tml will very tired wor..den mon tue wed got netball camp..the schedule dun looks very interesting...yepz..buden cant stay ovrnite wor...sian loh..meet at 7 till nite 7..den i will miss alot of shows lehz..haiz..den wed de is until 9...miss even more..hai..lolz..i sounds so tv addict..hahaz..hmm..looking forward to fri..wahahaz..or maybe thur?hmm both la..later when mummy come home will try to persuade mummy to let me have mini bbq...coz was discussng with elaine what to do..den she and eve maybe coming for slpover den if can bbq would be the best loh...yepz..feel like asking him out..buden will he spare time for me?shld be wun baz..he fri also got training..maybe see he thur can not baz..hope he would rmb this day baz...sianz..hahz..

2004-12-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

hmm...did nth much..went sch ytd morning to get tapes from sw..coz he helped me record ye man qing jia for the days i'm not in spore...den went orchard with sy...finali got back my yi tian tu long ji frm kevin...coz he's working in centrepoint de robinsons so went to get frm him...the plastic tear liao loh...sian...hmm...dnno how to protect my disc de lehz..sy's sis juz borrowed dou yu 2..den sy said can lend me lehz...lolz..cool..den i can watch dou yu 2 le..hmm..today got training..den came home le loh..hahaz..2boring days...hmm...anyway to that reali sick guy out there..dunno what to say but juz take care...see u like so xin ku wor...rest well and eat yr medicine regularly baz...hmm..crap..lolz..

2004-12-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

hmm..finali back le!!wanna sat first..wo he jiang shi you ge yue hui 3(my date with a vampire3) come out le!!!i want lehz!!act i wan 1 2 and 3 laz..lolz..buden think it's kinda ex...haiz..sianz..but reali want it nehz..maybe go and dug out the price...but 1 and 2 kinda hard to find le coz so long liao..dunno 3 will sell in the 1st place not..yepz..hahaz..doubt would get the chance to buy it also..haiz..lolz..now for the whole trip..actualli is 5days de..buden coz of some reasons, we extended another day in ipoh..but definitely not coz there's lots of things to do dere..lolz..hmm..i'm so died..i real fat nw..saying my 6day trip in summarise version baz..note the food and drinks i ate..lolz..though would still be quite long...hmm..

mon;genting
reach there..shopped..and watched the movie alexander..kinda boring wor..i couldn't understand the whole plot juz kept watching and watching..den ate kenny rogers for dinner..for breakfast was guotiao soup with ice milo..lunch was those chi food with um chi tea..ate baskin rubbins de ice cream b4 the show too..

tue;genting
went the theme park coz we simply got nth to do..though we sat everything b4..but juz erm play loh..breakfast was claypoy e-mian with ice milo...lunch was sushi king...3families total 400+rm...chicken teriyaki set with lots of sushi and green tea...dinner was lamb served with different kind of cooking styles..high chloestrol wor!!2families 500+rm sia..record nehz..a 1000spent on food for juz lunch and dinner...met claire with her grp of frens there..ate baskin robbins de ice cream again for supper..

wed;genting;ipoh
saw this reali cute guy...lolz..looks sporean to me..hahaz..he seems addicted to the camera coz he kept taking pics..was standing there looking at him for bt 30mins coz my mum was checking out..den set off for ipoh..we went into a fujian hui guan to stay..the toilet is damn erxin loh!!!there's spider and ants crawling ard in the toilet de loh...gross..stepping in to bathe is like hell to me...went to a kampung called sg.durain..lolz..coz my uncle de wife de family lives there..yepz..me and my cousin went to walk ard..we saw their sch..hmm is called durian chi sch..lolz..their classroom very untidy de..their chairs are those kopitiam de chairs..hmm perhaps anderson is reali good..lolz..was supposed to have bbq de..buden was raining..so didnt have any..act. kampung life is alrite..i wouldn't mind staying there for awhile..if i can survive the toilet..lolz..breakfast was dimsum and lunch was chi food again..but i ate lots of prawns...more than 10 i think...siao loh...skipped dinner..but ate tissue prata for supper...with ice milo..

thur;ipoh
went to visit the holes..lolz..hmm went three in total..in one of the holes there's like alot of rocks droopping down inside the whole hole..the surface was uneven too..den we stood there and started looking at the rocks..we could see alligators, pigs, dinosuars, crushed skulls, ghouls in pain, and erm an inverted 3d snoopy...lolz..den went shopping..bought 3shirts and a 3/4..i forgot what's the breakfast..had popiah and pizza with coke for lunch..dinner was guotiao soup with chi food..ate tones of meatballs..

fri;ipoh
act.wanted to go kl de..but coz of sum complicated reasons we stayed in ipoh..morning ate lao shu mee...with ice milo..lunch was i forgot..dinner went to eat chi food again..didn't eat much coz wasn't very nice..went shopping again..den visited their pasar malam too..yepz..bought another 3shirts and a shoe and also an earring..

sat;going home!!!
hahaz..um..breakfast was wantan mian with ice milo...lunch was kfc..dinner was chi food with tea...with many snacks in between coz was on the car..den eat sleep eat sleep...die le..

so...after this whole trip..i'm sick of ice milo...and mian...hahaz..and i survived the whole toilet thingy...there was this very rude kid too..is my aunt de bro de son...yepz..list some egs...once my gor was looking at drinks..den he juz came and asked my gor to buy for him one..when my gor said he had no money he juz dug his hands into my gor de pocket to search..another was when we bought water and he snatched a bottle and went off..yepz..hahaz..so rude...i think the best part for this whole trip was that i bought stuff and saw this cute guy..lolz...quite boring act...but i guess the company makes it better...yepz..

2004-11-28T22:19:00.000+08:00

change my temp le..love this alot..i think it's very nice...hmmm..juz now when i finis doing this whole template, i saved the changes ma den i dunno what i did..my whole temp abt 3/4 gone...den all my profile, contacts everything gone lehz..i was like on the verge of crying loh...everything have to start frm scratch lehz...den i was telling my fren thru sms..he very good loh!!!he came online den helped me...also dunno what he did buden he juz got my prev blog de html..so i no need redo le lohz...can juz copy and paste...i was like so happy...lolz...reali muz thx him..lolz...coz i was reali wth sian diao loh...wah xie xie ni wor..u this hen ke ai de bu ke ai da zhu!!=p

2004-11-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..wanna change my template nehz..v.sick of it...
but my gor's com has no notepad..so i cant d/l it..sianz...
so i think i've got to wait until my erge is done with fixing
my com..sian...anyway..juz went ard ppl's blog tagging...
hahaz...first time tag so many ppl's blog..juz had the
sudden urge to tag ppl's blog..hahaz..um...today morning
wake up at 5 to watch hunter x..first thing when i wake up
got scolded sicko by my bro..coz he was saying which person
wakes up early in the morning to watch CARTOON..hahaz..
anyway wanna thx that someone who woke up with me..
and he survived thru the whole 40 to 50mins show...yepz..
finis watching jiu went back to slp again..hahaz..tml going
holi le..to genting and ipoh..not anticipating it..coz seems
boring to me..almost every term de holi i will go genting..
so sick of it..buden i think i rather stay in genting den to
be in ipoh?!coz of the dirty toilets..lolz...at least i noe there's
movies,clothes, accesories and stuff waiting for me in genting..
hahaz...the theme park there is way out for me le..already
played all of e rides till damn sian..can recite the whole park
for u...got to wake up at 3.30!!!siaoz!!!myself dun slp...
coz my erm unclewho juz got a car is going with us too..
so is erm 4familiesgoing together..and so we got to go slow...
80km/h and morestops according to my mum...boring...
means we got tostay on the car for really long...coz in
the past we go 100km/h and not more than 5stops for
the whole trip..watched shutter last mon too..not bad..
quite scary..thruout the whole movie was like grabbing
sy like hell...hahaz..hmm..not exactly..but juz holding
hands..so cool..that mon was 22nov..and a yr ago de
22nov'03 i was watching wishing stairs at j8 too..
juz the person and the whole trip was very different..
hahz..03 de was more memorable..yea..duh..hmm..
the ending was creepy...not a bad movie though...
sy commented that the moral of this show is that
guys shld not cheat on their gfs or their lives would
be like hell..lolz...stupid..

2004-11-25T11:54:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..sneak in again...today morning so funny loh..
it's thurs...got training ma...so as usual wake up den my
dad fetch me to sch...den when i reach there, anna and
xueling was sitting there...den when i was talking to my
dad anna was shouting zj zj today training is afternoon de!!
den luckily my dad still there so he fetched me home..
so stupid lohz..luckily today i come wrong time got two
person pei me...lolz...sianz...den just now my didi called
and ask wan go malaysia not..den i ask can go buy disc
not..eating where..can reach back in time not..den he all
say can can can..den when i go down..on the car..i den
realise my dad not intending to buy disc..and we coming
home for lunch..i was like pengz den i go for what..so i keep
quarreling with my dad say i dunwan go le..den he say
impossible to u turn and fetch me back home..den i say i
dun care..den u put me down here i walk back myself...
lolz...so in the end he reali put me down and i walk
back..i'm so ren xing..sianz..ltr going back sch again...luckily
my dad willing to send me again..i hate going to sch myself..coz
very lazy...next week going holi le..mon to fri..dun reali seem
very fun to me lehz..dun reali look forward..got 2days go
ipoh.. umm..heard the hotel toilet very dirty..hmmm...
sian..i hate dirty toilets...suan le..hope i will get to shop baz..
lolz...last tue went to rgs for netball carnival...so stupid loh...
was raining thruout den nv play de loh...and the vending
machine in their canteen earn alot of money that day..
coz nth to do jiu eat...lolz the cup noodles also kenna sweep
until no more left loh..and i didnt get to eat lehz!!!so stupid..
alot other snacks also finis...hahz..

2004-11-19T09:59:00.000+08:00

hmm...now den got a chance to sneak in my bro's room
to use his com..lolz..hmm...nth much these days..came
back from chalet on wed..it was alrite..didn't reali do
any thing meaningful..not even watching the sunrise..
coz we were too lazy to walk out of the chalet..coz it's
damn far...the chalet is like so isolated..lolz..coastal
sands is already far enuff and we still have to walk
further in..hmm..when we reached there, we went to
the pool..yepz..den ms lee suggested to play water
captain's ball..so lame..lolz..den i was the captain..
den arkar and james lee was defending me...wah sei..
james lee damn 'contact' lohz..lolz..always hit dao wo de..
den arkar also hit my head..damn pain..lolz..bbq was
alrite..hmm..at 1plus... we sat down and talked...den miss
lee was telling us abt us...she said i have attitude..character..
hmm..lolz..and she says i seem to have alot of things on
mind..like think alot..lolz..hmm..sianz...also went to watch
forgotten after the chalet..hmm...not bad la..overall
quite nice..didnt reali disappoint me coz i was realli
looking forward to this movie..erm..but the ending was
abrupt..but still nice...lolz...last nite..me and my fren was
smsing..and erm we started talking on something..juz
wanna say thxs for everything..u made me think..whether
everything is worth it..whether waiting longer is juz more
pain or hope for me..whether i should juz let go and look
ard me..i think i have been hoping that he would look ard
but perhaps i failed to do that too..perhaps letting go
would reali be the best but i dun tink i can..

2004-11-15T19:42:00.000+08:00

hmm..kinda long nv update le..coz com spoil ma..den
my erge dunwan help me fix coz he too lazy..though
his reason is not that..hahaz..coz i went j.b on thurs
den i forgot to help him buy the sims 2 de disc
..so he said when i get his disc for him den he help me
fix..but i bet is he too lazy loh..lolz..hmm say until erge..
juz now i went bugis with my family..den me and my
gor went bugis street buy earrings...he's damn gay loh...
he lost my earring den die also dunwan buy me another
one..den his rate of losing earrings is like damn high..
lolz..which bro share earrings with sis de..hahaz..not
exactly share also..lolz.. he bought his in bugis street
den i went the 2nd level to buy...yea..den he already
finis choosing his le ma so he go up see got seats he jiu
go sit down..den i was choosing mine..den the owner
was waiting for me to choose ma..den he asked me i how
old..den i said sec2...den his face was like kinda shocked..
den he asked again that guy yr bf ar..den i looked up
and said no..is my gor..omg...lolz..ppl can mistook my
gor and me as bf and gf wor..bleahz..wan vomit lelolz..
sianz..tml going chalet le..oni one nite..ms lee paying..
dunno y book one nite oni..no fun de like that..hmm..but
hope it would be fun baz..hahaz..using my dage de
com now.hope my erge can stop being so lazy and
help me fix..hahaz..lolz..hmm...=p

2004-11-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..my com spoil lehz..dunno how long den can
use coz my that stupid erge keep procastinating den
dunwan to help me see to it..now i'm using me dage de
com...beg him de..lolz..hmm...i went out ytd...finali bought
netball shoe le!!lolz..buden i paid 85 for it..den jody paid 78
lehz..hmm..i tried bargaining lower..buden the person say
cannot lehz..he say this is the new model so will be more
ex..budeni see no diff in the shoe lehz..hmm..maybe i kenna
cheated..lolz..hmm..spend 134ytd...sian...go out jiu shopping
jiu 100+fly away..sianz..hahaz...hmm..and to the person
who wrote'hey man what the fuck'..juz wanna say u gave
me a fright lehz!!i tot it was 'him'..hmm..lol..anyway since u
are not who i think u are..i dun care..lolz...hmm..oh..and went
to eat thai food for lunch ytd..hmm..it's a restuarant in far
east 3rd or 4th storey..magic wok..though look kinda deserted
buden the food there quite nice and cheap too..yea...elaine
brought me and evelyn there de..we ordered pat thai(something
like guotiao de), pineapple rice and vermicilli(is like that spell
ma?i dunno lehz..)one plate 3.50nia.. we shared together..
hmm..all quite nice but the pat thai eat le will get kinda sick
of it..yepz..den my lunch ytd is like oni 4.40..so cheap..lolz..
and a change frm all the fastfood too..lolz..and to the person
who coz of some things v.nan shou..i hope one day u can
understand what's the thing troubling u and find out the ans
to the end of yr confusion..yepz..same old words..time reveal
all..give u and that person some time..lolz..hahaz..so lame..

2004-11-06T20:42:00.001+08:00

hmm..sianz..didnt do much today..eat watch tv sms
and sleep.. boring..at first wanted to go out with
elaine de..she was still complaining now den can go..
buden today morning called her her dad said she
went to live at her fren's hse wor..-_-"...den her hp
nv ans..so i was like sian suan le..still got ask
another fren la.. bden he chose to go out with
another bunch of frens..hahaz.. sianz..hmm..and
found out something today..finding the culprit
though seriously v.small chance can find..hmm..
buden juz wanna tell that culprit...i nv two timed
b4..not exactly though..but it was all the past me...
hmm..hahaz..i'm changed...u noe..wahahahaz... and
erm u hate me so much come directly to me laz..dun
do such cowardly stuff..sianz..maybe shld juz listen
to sy..and stop finding..since is v.long le..coz the
last time i stded was like last yr.. hahaz..c first baz..
sianz...and last nite also kinda of realised something..
he still can nv replace him coz he still lack something..
the most impt thing that will keep me standing not
moving an inch. hmm..and my cousin bought me
a dreamcatcher lehz..so cool.. hahaz..i have always
liked dreamcatcher..a mysterious thing... so
voodoo-ish..hahaz..hmm...loved that movie
dreamcatcher also.. damn nice..i also bought the
book..by stephen king de..buden haven finis
reading..coz damn thick..like hmm..harry potter and
the order of pheonix like that...oni read like 20pages??
hmm.. heez..and i bought it for like 3 to 4 months le..
wahhaahz...

2004-11-05T20:24:00.000+08:00

hmm..sianz..had training juz now..buden was in the canteen..
coz it was raining..hmm sianz not in a v.good mood now..
also dunno why..hmm..mood swing baz..hahaz..is those
bad mood but still can smile and laugh ard de..hahaz..
hmm weird me..sianz..today we all de triangles did very
badly..dunno how long den finis one set..and couldnt
finis the another..hmm..coach was like next one still
cannot finis the set down 10..and we did not...so got to
down..den later he said again 5more chances still cannot
down 20...den reali cannot lehz..dunno what's the prob
with us today...hmm..after that anna, natalie, peijin, chinping
and me stayed back to play for a while..hmm..is like 5ppl
play what netball..hmm..den we tot of asking the bballers
to play with us..hmm..buden in the end still dunhav laz..
den we decided on using netball play bball in the bball court..
den we played till we tied jiu stop le..hmm..sianz..juz now eat
dinner..my di di eat until halfway..vomitted and nose bled..
hmm it was gross..so cool..two at the same time..hmm..i'm so
sadistic....sianz...

2004-11-04T19:25:00.000+08:00

hmm sianz..had trainingtoday morning..hahaz..den after that
jody, chinping,natalie and I went to ljs to eat..hahaz..ate a
combo 1 upsize add fries..then also brought another
chicken wrap meal which i shared with jody..hahaz...den i
ate the slowest..when they finis i still haven eat my wrap
and the fries still left alot..den that stupid jody keep eating
my fries and wrap..hahaz..ltr we starting talking..
buden cp got to leave first coz she still need go home
study for her test tml..den coz nat wan go toilet and ljs
dunhave so we went to kfc and we started talking again..
wahahaz..so stupid...nat buy one ice cream oni den we
3ppl sit there waste one of their tables.. hahaz...the toilet
damn smelly loh..is like accumulated shit+ahem+not-flushing
loh..hahahaz..hmm...talked for v.long... till 6plus..wahahz..
we so 38..talk for 5hrs plus..wahhaz..said alot of things..
in total.nat ate a ice cream jody ate two..and the three
of us shared a popcorn chicken..hahaz..sianz..kinda
cool day.. coz of the things me,jody and nat talked..
hahaz..can be considered as girl's talk baz?wahahahz...
abit runny nose le...coz that stupid kfc de air con damn
cold..hahahahaz...

2004-11-03T18:25:00.000+08:00

hmm..this is the first day i have this blog..
dunno nice not lehz..shiyun pei me do de..=p
actualli mostly is she do la..hahaz..i see only..
coz i dunno..hmm..we both think something is
wrong but dunno how to say nehz..hahaz..hmm..
suan le..maybe next time when i master this
whole thing den say baz..hmm..muz reali say
thxs to sy..hahaz..heez..hmm..i finalli have frenster
le..hahaz..4days ago..this few days trying to get
ppl to write testi for me..wahahaz..hmm must thxs
all those who wrote for me..hmm..sianz..hahaz..
that stupid girl slping now lehz..hahaz..on my
didi bed..coz she say help me make blog v.lei..
hahahaz...my gor kenna accident lehz..hmm..
buden he not hurt at all..but the car v.yan zhong...
and it was me dage de car..amazed that my dage
nv scld him..hahaz..buden now they are back with
sharing..coz my parents say they wun buy another
car le..coz the car if repair need afew k..so myself
sell it...though also will losemoney..den my mum
was telling me gor also that his driving pts
will deduct...den still got fine frm LTA somemore
also got national parks de fine..coz he knocked
into a tree..hahahaz...sian..he have fun le loh..
haiz..hmm..but can see he's not v.happy abt it..
coz when my mum, my dage and him(with me
listening) discussing bt it, he juz walk off ..like so
depressed like that..leave my dage and mummy
discuss..so yeah..hahaz today afternoon he also
kenna sclded like siao..hope he cheer up baz..
hahaz..sianz...